Out of Meds, Wish me luck!

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  1. Stryves

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    So, I have some pretty severe mental issue's that surround my reality. I've been quiet for a couple days on the forum because I was afraid of something else. No medication.

    I have a severe issue differentiating reality and illusion. My meds cope with most of that. I have a personality disorder that I sometimes play up to drinking too much.

    Now I'm on day 1 and I'm waiting to hear if a location 60 miles away can supply me with what I need, I've already said give it first to people worse than I am.

    I'm sick and my 5 year old son are sick... We can't go to a hospital because I think that's worse, we both have similar symptoms, but he's not hurting and fighting so I'm sticking with him.

    But with everything going on, this was the worst time to lose em. I'll try and be one of myselves, but it's been a long time since I've been this fearful.

    A long time ago I played a game called Actraiser. When people were afraid, as a demi god, you gave the people... Music. Harmony. It's why we are who we are and I believe we're all empathetic to the nature of music. Kids go crazy non stop, hard to hear the harmony... But when you fail to hear that yourself, I can't even go there.

    Keep fighting on, and keep listening to those sounds in you head (not the voices, they're trouble). I know the title was wish me luck but that was a lie. I really wish you all the best instead!

     
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  3. Psychoacoustic

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    Good luck dude, hope you make it through these trying times and you manage to get some meds soon.
     
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    Good luck man, take care of yourself! :mates:
     
  5. Lock it down

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    Don't know how serious this is, and not my place to give advice, but please call someone you know and explain what's going on. If not for yourself, then for your kid.
     
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    Hope you can get a hold of that med soon bud. :headbang:
     
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    it's hard to push "like" on a post like that but i do like your outlook. my wife relies on medicine to keep her from anxiety and panic attacks. it took us two day to find a pharmacy that would fill her prescription. not the exact same thing you are going through, but i can empathize with you. stay safe and be well. i do wish you good fortune in getting what you need.
     
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    Went to the pharmacy to get 100 days blood pressure meds.
    Only got 28 days worth.
    Supposed to be more April 14th.
    Fortunately, my mental health med is cannabis.
    I eat an ounce a week in bran muffins. Indica, for tranquillizing effects as opposed to sativa, which drives me up the wall.
     
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  9. garfinkle

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    Sorry to hear it, man. I always like your posts, you're one of the genuine ones.

    This condition of yours, has it been properly diagnosed? HPPD, perhaps? There are some alternative treatments for such a disorder but at the very least you should be able to get hold of some beta blockers - they tend to worsen the symptoms initially but can prove very beneficial in the mid-term. Where are you, btw?
     
  10. proxie

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    Good luck man
     
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    We don't know each other from Adam. But I'm hoping the best for you and your son.
     
  12. Pinkman

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    I don't "Love it!"
    I love you. My part as the 1/~6B.

    You know I'm with you, bro
     
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    Good luck man. DO NOT FEAR. Everything will be alright. Have faith.
     
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    I have a wife, she's the "sane" one... If it weren't for her it'd be different and I understand 100% where you are coming/going.
     
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    I'm immune, sounds weird but true... Some people don't experience anything from it. Instead I get heart palpitations... Not fun haha. :)
     
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    Canada / schizophrenia. Meds have been fading, I've noticed I need to higher my dose but some of me won't let me. I think this was a wake up call. Things are as tethered as I hoped, but my kids keep me grounded. Some times they say the most honest and brilliant things.
     
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    I saw @The Pirate 's post... I realize he has his own demons through truth and jest, but again another good guy. When I saw his last post up I was thinking about how were all very similar in ways. I thought if he an joke about it, I should at least be honest!

    BTW, for those that were interested in my project... Still full steam. Music is harmony, winding road or straight way, all the same.

    Thanks and sorry for adding to it, just hope everyone is doing their part to stay sane!
     
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  18. garfinkle

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    Ahh, sorry man. I hope I didn't sound like I was trivialising. I'm from Australia. I assumed our public health systems were somewhat similar. Currently there is no shortage of regular medications to be had here. I can only assume that you are living somewhere vaguely remote.Is there no access to these medications online?
     
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    Oh no not at all! I'm not remote at all either, people are hoarding meds lately, and this goes back to January, so I've been nervous a couple times, first time I've been completely without.
     
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    Good luck man, I've suffered from mental illness too and I know how scary it is. Stay safe man and don't make any big decisions until you get those meds again. Sending love to you, you'll be in my prayers :)
     
  21. Rorer

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    Why not try to find yourself.
    I know kicking off from meds is dangerous, but do it slowly.
    Kamille tea, is an good remedy, also valerian is good against stress.
    Go Natural, and avoid synthetic medisin
    the synthetic medisin creates the mental issue's
     
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