realize you are self medicating (seeking drugs booze etc)
your brain is telling you something isn't right.

you will never cure yourself with conventional medicine, medicine is a racket, there is no money in cures.
Treatment goes on forever and is recurring revenue, you are not a human you are a wallet to the medical industry.

all healing occurs in the individual
a doctor cannot heal you

only you can heal you

a doctor can suggest a treatment that might work,
but you and your body do all the hard work

the only actual honest real use of doctors are surgeons that can treat trauma - in medicine trauma is not something that happened to you that hurt your feelings - Trauma is severe damage to tissue caused by gun shot wound or traffic acccident or sheer stupidity like jumping off a roof.

a surgeon can fix that sometimes, but you still have to do the healing.

all healing occurs in the individual
a doctor cannot heal you

only you can heal you