You heal yourself and you've become freer without drugs. Life takes time and every now and then you think of something new, like Tai Chi for me, which helps with nervousness. You have a lovely spot on your doorstep. Breathe... breathe deeply... breathe out, 20 times in a row and your breathing will become more regular and deeper.

You can also count backwards from 50. Breathing too incorrectly and for too short a time.
Writing the lyrics to a song helps you process what you've experienced...!

 

Yeah i gotta stop taking adderall im strong minded so i push thorough but i feel the anxiety really hard, i will try to do some breathing exercises
I deal with my trauma with meds, sedatives, opiods mainly, just quit opiods and doing fine but taking adderall instead. IDK man feels like when im sober im depressed so i have to take meds to snap out of it. But im ok just a little bit too damaged and i have accepted it.

Thats why music helps so much!

 

For anxiety disorders, you should get therapy. Exercise, oxygen, sport, walking, jogging are helpful for anxiety and depression. The main thing is to move. If you have been sitting for two hours you should go for a walk. If you are working in front of a monitor you should do something other than look at data or information. Your brain also needs rest and not information stress.

Your body will always try to restore balance. This can take a few years, but it usually gets better then. The key is exercise and nature. Because only nature heals us. Try to incorporate regular exercise every day, drink plenty of water, and stay away from sugar and caffeine.

Write down the options on a piece of paper and hang it up in a visible place. Your self-healing is already underway and will continue. You can do it...!

Did you ever get a precise diagnosis from your doctor?

 

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I understand all that ur saying most of it, ive been in top shape running 10km per day and gym 6 days a week, that fked me up also cus it made me stressed out to be in such a good shape, but moderate training is essential, ive spent two years front of an computer basically,. i do take walks and ive lost 22kg since december so im working on it, yeah i have arthritis, fibromyalgi , adhd, asperger, no diagnose considering my bigger issues cus they suck at the clinic, i know i have PTSD i did screening for it, almost full points, and there is nothing to do, PTSD cant be controlled it comes when it comes and triggers in certain situations, so i have a lot of issues, but i mean thats life, there is ppl who cant walk or see or have cancer and stuff, so i dont complain the best thing to do is exercise and making music, meditation is supposed to be good as well, i cant do it, dont have the patience but i will try the 20 breaths thing.

 

You're taking your life and your self-healing into your own hands.
These days, you can access the diverse knowledge available on the internet and see what helps you. Many affected people and healers write a lot about your illnesses. Illnesses are often the expression of inner conflict or the result of negative experiences. Some are inherited, others come from food, environmental pollution, and vaccines.

If you feel like it, you can do some Tai Chi exercises outside in nature. Tai Chi is performed without force, and if you practice Tai Chi regularly, you will feel better. There are books and videos available.

Grandmaster Wolf (For spiritual healing)
https://www.youtube.com/@GrandmasterWolfmystic

Spoiler: What is post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)?

What is post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)?

Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) occurs as a delayed psychological reaction to an extremely stressful event, a situation of exceptional threat or catastrophic proportions. These experiences ( traumas ) can be of shorter or longer duration, such as serious accidents, violent crimes, natural disasters, or acts of war. Those affected experience feelings of fear and defenselessness, and, due to a lack of coping skills, feel helpless and lost control.

Typical of PTSD are the so-called symptoms of re-experiencing, which affect those affected during the day in the form of memories of the trauma, daydreams, or flashbacks, and at night in anxiety dreams. Avoidance symptoms, in a sense, are the counterpart to these, which usually occur parallel to the symptoms of re-experiencing: emotional numbness, indifference and apathy towards one's surroundings and other people, and active avoidance of activities and situations that could trigger memories of the trauma. Sometimes important aspects of the traumatic experience can no longer be (fully) recalled. A frequently associated state of autonomic hyperarousal is also present, which can manifest as sleep disturbances , irritability, difficulty concentrating, hypervigilance, or pronounced startle sensitivity.

The disorder arises as a possible consequence of the traumatic event. Such triggering experiences can plunge almost anyone into deep despair, which is different from adjustment disorders, which can be triggered by stressors of any severity. Secondary stress caused by traumatic events experienced by others (e.g., close relatives) can also trigger symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder. The neurobiological process that occurs in the brain during PTSD has not yet been sufficiently researched.

More than half of all people are confronted with a traumatic event at least once in their lives. The likelihood of developing PTSD following a traumatic experience depends, among other things, on the type of trauma. In general, the risk is particularly high in cases of trauma caused by humans: up to a third of those affected develop PTSD after rape, other violent crimes and war trauma. Natural disasters, fires, chemical or traffic accidents and acute physical illnesses (e.g. heart attack, cancer) can also trigger post-traumatic stress disorder, but the relative risk is significantly lower in such cases. Averaged across all types of trauma, around 10% of all trauma victims develop PTSD. The lifetime prevalence, i.e. the probability of developing post-traumatic stress disorder over the course of a lifetime, is around 8% worldwide.
The terms posttraumatic stress disorder, posttraumatic stress syndrome, or posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) are used interchangeably. According to the International Classification of Mental Health (ICD -10), this mental illness is classified as a reaction to severe stress and an adjustment disorder.

Technical support: Prof. Dr. Ulrich Schnyder, Zurich (SGPP)

Forms or courses of post-traumatic stress disorders

Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can occur in various forms and have different courses, depending on the individual's reaction to the traumatic event. Typical forms and courses include:

• Acute PTSD:
  This occurs in the first three months after the traumatic event and can be characterized by intense symptoms such as flashbacks, nightmares, and severe anxiety.
  
• Chronic PTSD:
  For some people, symptoms last longer than three months and become chronic. They can have long-term effects on daily life and require ongoing treatment.
  
• Delayed PTSD:
  Some people may not develop symptoms of PTSD until months or even years after the traumatic event. This may be due to repressed emotions or a delayed exposure to the effects of the trauma.
  
• Complex PTSD:
  This form often occurs in people who have been exposed to repeated traumatic experiences, such as victims of childhood abuse or long-term sexual abuse. It is often accompanied by additional symptoms, such as difficulty regulating emotions, problems with self-esteem, and dysfunctional relationships.

The course of PTSD can vary depending on individual factors and the type of trauma. Early diagnosis and treatment are crucial to reduce the risk of long-term consequences and improve the quality of life of those affected.

Treatment of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)

Treatment for post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) typically requires a comprehensive therapeutic approach aimed at alleviating symptoms and improving the affected person's quality of life. There are various treatment methods that can be used individually or in combination, depending on the needs and severity of the condition. Common treatment options include:

• Psychotherapy:
  Psychotherapy, particularly cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and trauma therapy , is a key component in the treatment of PTSD. Through talk therapy and specific techniques such as exposure and desensitization therapy, the affected person can learn to deal with the traumatic memories and develop new coping strategies.
  
• Drug therapy:
  Medications such as antidepressants or anxiolytics can be used to treat symptoms such as depression, anxiety, and sleep disturbances. However, they should be used in combination with psychotherapy and under medical supervision.
  
• EMDR therapy:
  Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) therapy is a specialized form of psychotherapy that aims to reduce the emotional burden of traumatic memories. Through targeted stimulation of specific brain areas during treatment, the symptoms of PTSD can be alleviated.
  
• Self-help groups:
  Exchanging experiences with other sufferers in self-help groups can be a valuable complement to professional therapy. Mutual support and shared coping skills can reduce feelings of isolation and open up new perspectives.
  
• Lifestyle changes:
  Healthy lifestyle habits such as regular exercise, a balanced diet, adequate sleep, and stress management can also help improve symptoms and build resilience.

Treating PTSD often requires patience and commitment, as symptoms can be persistent and the healing process takes time. Early diagnosis and an individually tailored treatment plan are crucial for successful management of the condition.

 

It's all very decent stuff, could get played in clubs but needs to be arranged better.

All too long, get 'em down to 4 mins or under, very hard to hold folks attention for so long, plus it's easier to manage.

You need to listen as you produce, sections as you work on them and the whole track, Does it flow? Does it go on a bit? Is it memorable?

Need some variation in drums and music add some vocals, etc, it's good stuff, you're nearly there, you only gotta step up half a gear man. You have the ability but you need to hone it, learn to be your fiercest critic, learn not to need advice, you already know how to put a very decent track together, next step is that extra half mile, a HIT, but only you can bring that outta you, learn to be more discerning.

Before you can produce anything of real quality, you have to be able to recognise that quality in others work.

 

Yeah i have inhereted my physical problems and thorough drug abuse ive gotten my issues 10 years earlier , so i need to step up while im in my mid 30s or late 30s, you have very good insights, appreciate it, thai chi is not for me but i do have a crosstrainer im gonna start using again 15 min per day, makes a lot of difference if one just does simple exercise consistently.

Being healthy is probably the best thing, however i get tired of being sober for a year or 2 and then i start self medicating, i handle it pretty well but it takes a toll on my body and my liver, heart etc. If i keep doing the same stuff im likely to die early, SO i need to shape up, and i will.

Lost 24kgs now so im starting to feel more energized and can jog if i want too, im gonna take up jogging this summer i love it, best exercise ever. Thanks for your thoughts and help. Appreciate it. A lot

 

You're welcome, then I wish you all the best and luck on your journey and may you become who you are!

 

Yeah if im gonna do 7 min tracks there need to be a 2 min change almost implementing another genre that fits the original genre, ive heard alot of producers changing it up big time, and its dope.

Yeah i know i have to step up, ive done this for 3 years active, 2 inactive cus of institutions and issues in life, so i think in 2 years if i keep it ut like im doing now, i will probably be good enough, i agree with what your saying and im experimenting with plugins that alter sounds like looperator, ds tantra, shaperbox and audio damage stuff, arturia fx plugins, if you slap the right preset or plugin on a beat it can become a groove thats just amazing, i know that this is what pros do, i just havent found my plugins and learnt them, its important to learn your plugins like you would an instrument, so that is my focus from now on, and also building really good sample libraries.

Thanks for your comment and that you think i can overcome the next steps.

 

Thank you, you as well, feel free to drop in and listen to my tracks, i will share them in this thread, and we can discuss anything, i have gotten some inspiration from your feedback on mental health seems like you know a lot about it! Very nice, thank you

 

You once sent me all your sounds, I think 2.6 GB or 1.6 GB, I had a different username. I listened to everything, and it's very good in terms of craftsmanship and sound, which means you have talent and love! Some songs are very good, some are good, and some are adequate!

For example, when you learn guitar, the beginning is very difficult and you have to practice. After a few weeks, you can learn the first chords, and after a few months, you can already play something. But to fully master an instrument, they say it takes about nine years! In our digital age, everything moves much faster.

But the brain learns a new program/knowledge and since our brain is very creative, other influences flow into it and in the end it should sound harmonious or clear. If you make punk music you only need 3 chords and a distortion pedal, but if you want to make demanding, successful music you have to practice a lot, learn, try things out, fail and keep going, because one thing should definitely not happen: that your listener says he sounds like this or that, but rather a real JonnyBoy should emerge, i.e. a unique style, you don't have to find it, it will come naturally if you keep going...!

You will know it intuitively, yes, that's it, I'll stick with that, that's how you develop your own things, sometimes it works - sometimes it doesn't, now and then improvements, sometimes something completely new, that's up to your brain, which most people don't understand at all...!

Take more time... not everything has to be a hit, but this way you'll stay in shape, and I'm sure you'll deliver outstanding productions, maybe not in two years, but at the latest in three or five. Maximum pressure to perform always leads to failure and blockages.

The will to create something new is a challenge, namely solving a musical problem. As a thank you, your brain releases dopamine, the happiness hormone. There are also stress hormones like noradreline and adrenaline, which are counterproductive. There's even a human biorhythm, with good phases and bad phases.

When you start something, you mentally see the result, but the path there is rocky and difficult. Rest assured, life still holds many secrets and surprises. So it won't be boring; you're growing mentally and becoming more mature...!

 

Ahh yes i remember sending my old stuff, since then ive made 20 new tracks. So check them out on soundcloud if you havent,

Yeah exactly it takes 10 hrs and that is 5 years if you spend 8 hrs a day which is unlikely so about 10 years sounds right, i agree i need couple of years, and my creativity comes and goes, sometimes i dont do anything for days or weeks but ive been pushing lately and it helps, i overcome the obstacle sooner or later if i just produce even if its crap, so just delete and go next, yeah i need to take time and learn proper plugins especially fx plugins and then sample management which is already ok but not good enough, there is many different aspects when putting together a piece of music on an computer, live music is flowing, computer music is strategy and creative problem solving.

I find that i only need 4-5 notes. Many times 3 notes for a whole track, just jump in octaves and change rhythm and melodies, im not the best composer so i rely on my ears and how i feel when listening, mostly its decent but there is so much more one can do to make good music.

I find a lot of good producers and im thinking that id like to produce that way but then i listen to my music and as you said a style is emerging so i will try to keep going as i am, iv'e progressed a lot the last 6 months cus ive been pushing my self, and ive had some good days, it comes bad times aswell when i do nothing and that is why pushing is important cus u forget the problems after some time fiddeling with a track.

So music is definetly good for the brain as you said, my mood has increased alot since i made my new tracks.

 

You're analyzing the whole thing correctly; unfortunately, we're not robots or hit machines. But work pays off, or the hard-working are lucky, as they say, but you shouldn't overdo it either.

You've probably seen many artists with burnout syndrome or drug addiction to cope with their success.

That's the real art. Being creative is different than going to work; something new sometimes emerges through inspiration or luck. Furthermore, through your music, others in the world benefit from you. This way, everyone gives their best, and together we form creatives = creators and consumers = listeners.

You shouldn't be a copy of anything; you are unique, you even have your own fingerprint, and your brain is like no other.
It doesn't make you happy to chase after something you can't do yourself. We want to achieve contentment and serenity.

Today I read about a 300-liter-per-square-meter rainfall event in Argentina. 54 dead, power outage, save yourself if you can.
We're in a good place.

New tracks are also the meaning and purpose of life.

 

Yeah i know, it can be dangerous to get too much pressure on one self, like the next tracks needs to be better, work faster etc and harder, i find taking small breaks days or a week gives new perspective plus the brain can process the development.

Nah i dont copy anything but i do listen to psychedelic techno, and its important too listen to other forms of music aswell, but i mainly stay in my genre, if i can improve my own music making it will become unique, its all about improvement and if you want to go famous one needs to alter the music, i wont alter my music but maybe after ive mastered my genre.

Yea i live in Sweden we have it pretty good, and functional social system, not the best but ok, so yeah we have everything we need while people die of sickness and starvation and all kinds of stuff

 

It's great that we had such a good conversation! If you need some presets, please visit my website: http://ohlenbostelhelge.magix.net/public/ Greetings from Germany, with the same foreign violence and crime problem as you.

 

Most definetly thank you

 

I've read things in the post that I wanted to tell you, but I can add that they sound good. You've reached a point where you can evolve from these ideas into something much bigger. I always say that if I write a good song, it's the beginning of doing better things. Of course, without putting too much pressure on yourself because it can affect you mentally.

Keep going, you're doing well and you can do better. Sometimes all we need is an encouraging message to motivate and inspire you. I hope it's one of those.

 

Thank you appreciate it, it gives more inspiration, ive done 20 tracks or so in 3-4 months beginning to feel some pressure so gonna lay back for a week or two then come back and just keep improving. Waiting a week or two gives you new "ears" to what you've made so a break is in order.

Thnx for your input!!