Strange shit happens as you grow older my youngster. I just recently discovered the arthritis on my right thumb. WTF?! I'm not sure why or how I got it. Too much "recreational activities"? I read up on it and they say you can get it from not doing too much as well as doing too much with your thumb. Like... WTF? Essentially, you just get it on various joints as you grow old because the cartilage gets thin, no matter if you do or not do too much or too less, but generally if you strain them too much. Cartilage gets thinner from all kinds of things. However, you get a banana up-yours both ways in the end. Kinda like Microsoft.

I've seen much younger people with atrocious looking feet usually, sometimes hands. Women who wear high heels all the time. Joints swollen. Looks painful. Mine is not painful at least. Not yet.

p.s. I play my keyboard and drum controller with my left hand while previewing sounds [it takes a lot of time] and with my right hand or both hands when recording, so it should be my left hand that gets more strained.

 

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Slowly descending into alcoholism, but not there yet. At least i've been refining my taste so it's not n addiction, it's classy.

 

This is what alcohol does to you. It is brutal! You get to laugh at Dave Allen's jokes! [s/]

Brit humour at its best. Aside from Monthies.

Remember, it is Friday and I'm pissed. :P

 

Shout out to my obese people!

 

I just got banned from DSP56300 Dicord because I claimed that 1 instance of it and using 16 MIDI channels of it is far more efficient than using 16 instances of it. Of course, I simplified it. But in the end it comes down to that. Oh my fuken god what has this world come down to. I am keeping myself out of public forums, but in the end it gets you surprised by the idiocy you encounter. I got banned. I got banned. LOL For essentially saying the grass is green.

Beware of DSP56300 discord... it's like saying Bloody Marry three times in the mirror... brrr

 

I've never got it why being obese had anything to do with anything?? But especially with the ability to think? Fuck them!

Living on this now piece of shit what used to be a huge chunk of lovable shit taught me a bit of a lesson... live as far as you can from the humans. People are scum. Even more so these days.

I'm actually shedding tears posting this, but it is true, I think? Humans have become in general so stupid. Bananas. Just useles to talk to. Is really fucked,.

 

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Anyway, what strikes me as incredibly unusual is that 1 instance against 16 instances of DSP56300 Virus C. You must be a real shit arse to not get it!

 

Oh alcohol god, help me.

edited for the peace of the poster's mind.

I'm really sorry people. I got shitfaced again. Completely. Damn it.

It feels really stupid reading your comments in the morning when you're still a bit drunk.

Fuck me.... I hope you're not minding me much, unlike the other forum. This one is traditionally more forgiving unless you r4eally overdo it. Which is absolutely appreciated, the former and the latter, too.

I love you people. I mean it.

Now you see what alcohol can do to you. It can embarrass you badly. It can get you banned.

 

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Just put some ice in it. Then you aren't an alcoholic.

 

I was good until I read this thread now I'm fucked again

 

Hop up on the train my dude. Let's ride the fucked up train again.

khm, this seems to have escalated a little. :pray:

There's too much of my childish and gentle face, especially on this page of the thread. I know I look like a child loving dude, but I'm really not. I also look like a dude that takes granmas across the street, I'm not. Oh shame. What a shame I am.

Good day! [i'm gng t bed, god bless me to shut up finally]

Fridays are hard. Saturdays even more. Sundays are easier because you sleep it all the way through.

 

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Things are shit here thanks. My liver is currently flooding my bloodstream with dead cells. Tests are ongoing. Possibly an autoimmune disorder. And a growth on my thyroid is rated as high probability cancerous. A biopsy was as much fun as it sounds. I await results.
It has revealed an unpleasant aspect of myself. I wallow in my own misery and lose interest in everything else.
How David Bowie finished Blackstar knowing how sick he was is an incredulous feat of will.
I'd lie in bed begging for morphine.

 

im at my best ive been in my entire life. Going on 3 months of complete sobriety, No drugs or alcohol. Working out daily and trying to eat as healthy as I can. My mental health has a lot of room for improvement (general/social anxiety, confidence issues) but i feel like im on the right path. Lets hope it stays that way.

 

Dude I hope you understand my "like" as in empathising with how you're doing. It's admirable how some of us cope with shit we're put through. Hang on my good dude. Hang on. Don't ever give up.

 

All that matters is how you feel. Feel good? Goood! How's your music life? It's easier to feel good than to feel productive, which is "ultimate good".

I also feel like I have to make up for my drunken posts. LOL I've really went to far.

 

I am doing much better than I thought before reading through this thread.

 

The biggest and best drug is free, it's called intelligence.

 

I was going to reply to your benzo post as another thing I share. I'm still a valium user after 20 years on benzos. I spent the first 10 on Xanax. I also have an unhealthy relationship with Lyrica. All of which I tell myself I'm handling fairly well. Until the "through the roof" liver enzymes caused my doc to make me stop all meds immediately. Including blood pressure, cholesterol, antihistamines, etc.... in short, I'm in hell. Haven't slept more than 4 hours in the last week. It's winter down here in Australia and I live in the mountains and despite subzero temps at night, my sheets are wet every night*. And my dogs think I stink.
But that is actually normal. If only they knew what I thought of them!

*No, not from that.

 

" There is a bright, happy and healthy mind in everyone, absolutely brimming with untapped potential and spiritual contentment."
" Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime. "

 

OMG. And I thought I was having problems. Hang on dude. 20 years on benzos, you have my sympathy bro. I know how you feel. It's shit. Music is the only thing that helps really. As I said - it's like a therapy. Also, I'm glad you have animals around you. Dogs and cats, they can really help you keep sanity, somewhat. I mean they give you a touch of reality. Animals are incredible natural drug. They also give you purpose because when you lose one of them it's like losing a family member. For me at least. All the good vibes I have left go to you and Lois... I hope you find this forum as pleasurable as I do, bloke. I always appreciate your posts. Keep it up! "Today is the day I'm going to make something good". Every day should be like that. One day after another, huh? I know... you've heard this shit already, as well as I... finding something to live for is the key. I have my Babe [swedish spitz], 7 cats, weird wife [long story lol] and music. A studio I always dreamed of. Do you? I would also give parts of my studio for your view I suppose!