I'm worried because i understand what this meant....lol

 

Composing Music has been my poetry, my sanctuary, and the only way I have ever been able to translate the language of my soul. Music has been my anti-depressant, my LSD, and my antibiotic cure-all. Without the ability to express myself through the vibrations of Music, I would feel void and null to some extent. Like the loss of a limb, so to speak. Creating Music is as much a part of my life as breathing air. So YES, I vote Absolutely ...Music is my Life.

 

It has been the thing keeping me going for the past 7 years, and i don't say that in a negative way. My relationship with music has been the purest, and most inspiring relationship with anything or anyone to date, and i expect to die with that having not changed, which i also do not say with negativity.

I'm working to take all the seriousness i've created around pursuing music production as a career, and drop it like a three day old turd. I have no idea if that metaphor made any sense, but since i do not care, plz don't waste your time making fun of me, i have no feelings.

At any rate, when i am just hanging out with my DAW and have no ideas that i'm going to make something with particular qualities, or whether it's going to be any good or not, then the strangest thing happens, and this is with 100% consistency too......i will write some shit that makes all the work and time and effort i've poured into doing this thing 100% on my own totally worth it, because it is really fucking good.

The issue for me is being able to remember that NONE OF THIS MATTERS. That we're all just here to play around and explore this incredible creation. That we are clearly not equipped to understand Reality, but instead are fully equipped to enjoy our existence on this planet as Gods and Goddesses who bumped our heads and forgot who we are.

Thank you for this thread. It's a topic i've been mulling over in my head about for a little while now and frankly it's been quite vexing as i suffer from major depressive disorder, and so my mind is great at taking things that are so sacred like music, and the fact that i now possess the skills to actually MAKE IT AT MY WHIM, and have me feel negatively about it because i haven't lived up to my goals in exactly the way i first pictured them coming to fruition, even though that never happens for anyone. We always surprise ourselves, and life surprises us, which is why staying in a place of gratitude for what we do have, is the only way to be happy and to have any hope of moving forward and expanding our opportunities in all areas of our lives.

I'm going to try something, and i'll let you all know how it goes in a month if i remember. Every time i open Ableton, i'm going to take 5 mins to meditate on gratitude for being given the opportunity to do something as amazing as create my own music from nothing, and also on the transient(producer pun)nature of reality and the fact that exerting effort and "taking things seriously" never equals success, it is what creates neuroses and has people end up blowing their brains out when they don't achieve things in their life that they made so important that by doing so in fact made certain that they would fail at them because of the anxiety and fear that are direct results of when we take ourselves and whatever we are doing so seriously, because by doing that it is clear we have missed the point of this existence entirely.

Thank you.

 

I could surely have waisted my life with other things but Im pleased as it is ;-)

 

Translation....... There is a lot of experience on this board.

 

I don't know why I do it, I've tried to pursue other things but then I just think about making music in the back of my head, it doesn't go away. If I do music I don't want anything else.

However I do think it's a struggle a lot of times. I started music later then most people and I find it's really hard to get good at it because of it. I had a lot of talent in other fields, arts, science,writing etc but when music came into my life I just had to stop all that even though I could have had a career in any of those fields. Some people would think it was a stupid choice, but it wasn't really a choice.

But then I've figured out that music is an artform so imagination, taste and emotion is something you can add no matter what technical skills you have, and you can build something unique and true from that, so it actually doesn't bother me that I'm not a schooled musician anymore.

I can do stuff that they could never do and vice versa, so I guess that you might see it as different approaches leading to different results.

Anyway.

As uncle bob would say "one good thing about music, when it hits you feel no pain"

 

Haha what a great question. Do as your heart desires and go where you feel most alive. At times risky but worth dying for any given time over an ordinary life. Dull comes to mind. No dullness as a musician. Lots of mania and manic attacks... llts of depression and self doubt... it takes a strong or lucky person to prevail. Make music for the love of it.. authenticity will prevail and attract other souls just like you. We're all in it together. If you doubt wether you should pursuit it, Don't! Keep it as a hobby and live happily ever after ;)

xox

 

story of my life..

 

Thank You for this. Have a nice day!